Wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my father's come to pass
7 years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my father's come to pass
20 years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends

September is the time i lost you

the season where my tears ran dry

the memory drenched in pain and loss

2 years has gone so fast

more years to come

where you will live in my heart and memory forever

each year this day

will i whisper a prayer

may it turn to a letter addressed to heaven

telling you

i miss you, dad.

wake me up when september ends...

Love that never let go

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death

Your perfect love is casting out fear

And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life

I won't turn back

I know you are near

And I will fear no evil

For my God is with me

And if my God is with me

Whom then shall I fear?

Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go

Through the calm and through the storm

Oh no, You never let go

In every high and every low

Oh no, You never let go

Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on

A glorious light beyond all compare

And there will be an end to these troubles

But until that day comes

We'll live to know You here on the earth

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on

And there will be an end to these troubles

But until that day comes

Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

Prove to me

i know how great thou art
i know how You calmed the raging seas
i know how much blood you have shed for me

Yet

i do not just want to know
i do not just want to hear
about how great is that God in the bible
about how great is the ever-forgiving love
that forgives even

a sinner
a wretch
the worst person in the world
like me

at the cross

i bow my knees
i challenge
i want to see
i want You to prove
let me see and experience

that You dont just live in Bible and sermons
that You are not just a silly belief which people thinks
i have fallen into
that You are real

by changing me
now.

Let me see
how thy grace
will change a lousy person like me.

Then shall i
my life
be a testimony for You
for the rest of my days
as long as life endures.

思

What it takes

for a man to remember his promise

to a sometimes willful and over-demanding young girl

that he promised to get her a laptop which she has always wanted

even at the time when he knows his days are numbered

even it takes up not much that’s left of him

stretching that will that is still holding strong

within the frail body

he still wants to fulfill her dream like he always do…

What it takes

for a man to remember just that set of number

when he barely could couldn’t recognize anyone else that moment

lying on that snow-white hospital bed

he still want to give her a call

even it takes so much energy just to say a few simple words

to tell and assure her he is fine when he is not

even it takes up the pride and ego that means everything to a man

to beg and plead just so he could her voice in hospital where calls are forbid especially in an ICU

Just so he could tell her

what he hopes and wants for her life

before the cancer cells clear his path

his way

to the heaven…

That was the last time he talked to her

That was the last time she ever heard his voice…

All it takes...

is just a father’s love to his most precious princess...

To never fail his promise

To keep her in his mind and heart

even until the last moments…

365 days have passed...

she thought that being away from home for too long

being a strong and independent girl as always in everyone's eyes

the memories of him

that seem to linger lesser and lesser in her mind

she might and she will forget about him one day…

Just then she found out

it will never be.

She will never lose it

she will never forget it

she will never exchange it for anything.

Just because

its part of her.

366th day onwards

I wish I could tell you I don’t miss you anymore

I won’t be trying hard to recall the vague memories we had before

for I have decided to keep you in my heart wherever I go...

The day when I put on my graduation robe

The day when I walk into a crowd to serve as a pharmacist

The day when I walk the down the aisle to give my hand to him

The day when you will have a little one asking about his grandpa

i want you to be there

right there with me in my heart

to live every moment of my life with me…

I miss you,

I really do.

Change Changing Changed

Every morning when i wake
i wait for You
Every night when i find rest
i found my rest in You

You're the one who's shaping me
to be more like You
i lose myself till there is nothing

i can, i will and i am changing
till it's You who i see in me
i stand, i kneel and i'd do anything
till it's You who i see in me

Unto You i commit this life again
every inch of me is to magnify You

Start in me
Start with me Lord
because i yearn to see
it too will start

in him
in her
in them
in the small family
in the small town
in the small land
in the small world
that never stops spinning

in Your big big hand...

i want

change changing changed

爱

有人说，不要告诉她
我爱你
因为对她没有用。

原来
爱可以以价值计算。

原来，
最美的我爱你，
可以变得这么没意义。

原来
爱，好痛。


爱你的人，永远都是伤你最深的人。
是因为爱，所以才伤害吗？

人，好矛盾。
因为爱你，所以伤害你。
这是为你好。

我没有喊痛，不代表我没有感觉。

眼角的眼泪
终究
会被风而吹干。


Daddy，我累了。
可以暂时
不要再当你坚强的女儿
不要再忍着眼泪
不要长大


可以让我在你的怀抱
躲一下马？

我会好起来的
在眼泪干后。。。

Forever Legacy

As i looked back
the very first post when this blog was born
its about him,
or rather Him
what He hoped for in tears as He looked down.

Heal the World
one song that truly melted my heart to it
each word speaks of the hope
hope of a generation
hope of a lonely soul that it will be heard one day
hope when finally guns are put down and hands are shaken again
hope of a sick world that needs healing.

Now
the one who sang it no longer sings
but the hope always remain
for he too hope for a better world
for his children
for this world which he has to bid farewell first.

He has made a difference,
have us?