There she kneels, alone in the center of a circle. Surrounding her was a group of men, with whips. Pillars of sweats were dropping down from the cheeks of both parties, the woman and the men.
"Let's see how long u can stand this. I will make u suffer for this." What follow was a series of mad laughter.
"He will make u pay for this... " she quenched out her last bit of energy to squeezed out these few words from the the seemingly unmoved lips.
Sshhip...
another slash dropped on her back. Skins broke, blood splashed, body collapsed...
There she is, lying there. Motionless. Eyes looking upward into the ray of light in front of her, looking into nothingness. One could easily thought the thing lying there is just a corpse, lifeless. But if u would just go abit more closer, u can notice that bead of tear on the edge of her eyelid, and maybe the very frail movement of chest, up, down, up, down...the only sign that proves that she is still alive.
The people around her was gone now,all that left was darkness. Totally darkness. But many didn't realise that there was actually a fire burning in the room itself. The flame was dazzling, the heat was immense, the temperature is high, high enough to melt the hardest solid in the world, gold. It was there, deep in her heart, burning so intensely. But what she wanted was not gold that it melts, but hearts, hearts of stone.
The door was opened, a figure walked in. Not those face with evil grins on their face and a whip in their hands anymore, not those rigid and sturdy body anymore. No, not them anymore. But it really didn't matter also anyway now.
In she came, a lady. Same age with her. The difference between these them was, she was clean and neat. And most importantly, she didn't have scars with her, she didn't have to go through what she had gone through. She stood there, stunned. Couldn't believe what she saw.
"What have they done to u? How could they...?? "
She ran over, hugged the motionless body and broke down in tears. That's her best friend, who grew up together with her. They once shared the same dream, shared the same memories, shared the same laughter and tears. But when they decided to follow the different master, it won't be the same anymore.
One decided to follow a wealthy man.He was rich, he was smart or maybe cunning, he can give you anything u desire for as long as u submit to him, to his powers to do what he ordered to achieve success in his evil plots. She followed him,and she was glad she could be free from all the sufferings and enjoyed life by controlling by her master.
Another decided to follow a guy. He got everything too, yet nothing. He was a servant himself, serving others. Why would one choose to follow a servant and be a servant's servant ? No one understand. Furthermore this master of hers had been condemned by all for his acts of claiming to be God's son and lastly die by being nailed to a cross in front of public. And there she was here, going through agony for her master that was dead and will never be back according to all.
"Why are u so stubborn? Just surrender to them. It won't take u anything and instead u will enjoy it."
"He will come..."
"No, he won't. Listen, he won't come. He forsake u when u are in trouble and how do u expect a person who can't even save himself to come and save u?"
Countless of people told her all these before. She can't remembered anymore how many times it had been repeated. From her enemies, from the ignorant people, from her friends, and, even her loved ones. People laughed at her stupid loyalty, people mocked her for looking troubles for herself, and people persecuted her for her faith.
This does not just happened once. From the first day she decided to follow Him, she expected this. Reprimands, mockery, sarcastic words...never stopped. She told herself it will be fine, they will stop when they finally realise the truth one day. But this one day that she had been waiting for never comes.
Again and again she was persecuted, again and again they stepped on her, again and again she was stabbed. Again and again her tears dropped...
She prayed so hard, pray that one day the flame in her heart could help the lost ones to find their way. But, it didn't happened. Not till now...
She was tired of waiting. She felt like to stop here, now. She can't go on anymore...
Just as she felt that she was going to surrender, she heard Him. Yes, loud and clear He speaks to her.
"Im sorry that u have to go through this. But trust me, one day I will come to fetch you home, your real home. Hold on to me and i shall honour you. "
In that hollow room where only sobs of her friends that could be heard, there was another sound. It was a hymn, a very soft sound...
When i fall u picked me up
When i am empty u filled me up
To give up i would be a fool
U are my strength when i am weak
U sustain me when im falling
U saw the best in me
U are all i need
U are all i need
Im everything i am
Because u loved me
"Girl, listen to me once. Please, just this once. Surrender to them. "
" I will surrender...but only to my Lord." She closed her eyes up.
I trust Him.
13 comments:
Dearest Pei Ling,
tears, are not tears if it doesn't reflect the deepest of one's hearts.
Your tears are not unseen, cries never unheard. yes, i may not have went through such a path as you did, but you're not alone, for many have came out from persecution and became victorious.
i'm persecuted in different ways, but that's not the issue. the thing is, persecution is purification, persecution is pressing. the pressing of grapes for pure wine, the pressing of olive for the oil and essence.
most importantly, you're never alone. don't ever forget that.
"The darkness. It shines the brightest lights; The rain, it moists the driest soil."
Hang on. I know you can. I'm with you, after all.
hey, i never know that you have a blog! I was amazed by your entries. Keep up the good work. =)
All the best for your exam too~
dear pei ling, i'm so touched with your post. this experience wil surely make you grow into a brighter servant of Him.
well, believing in Him is absolutely a good thing, but we have to live up this righteouness as a testimony of faith.
i'm sure u can do it de. gambateh! you have our support.
NEXT POST MA'AM.......
NEXT POST MA'AM.......
Nice things are deserved to be waited,right?
Haha,anyway i dont think u hope tat i will come up with this kind of post often,it will take up alot of ur time before this dude.
Haha...
hey!
From her enemies, from the ignorant people, from her friends, and, even her loved ones.
rmb that everything is in His timing. it may not be now, but who knows? you might be sowing the seed already bcos of your faithfulness =) proud of you i am.
btw, guess what? i sat for modul today to get my L lisence. haha. it's so nice driving like 50-55 on Niyor's straight road! next time when you come back i'll drive you around kay? muahahhaa.
sorry ah. phone no credit to tell you this (and you'll say: as usual..) hahha.
take care! yes-ie? yeah.
i is loving you!
Dearest Joyce, recently i found that i m going futher and futher from God's embrace. i felt that He is so far away from me. i started to feel so lonely and helpless. I m the lost sheep, who doesn't know the way to go home... but I finally realised that this is the test He gave to me. i pray to Him, not to abandon me, but always stay beside me... I ask for His forgiveness for doubting His love... The shepherd found me, i m gald He din forsake me. He is always there, juz that i m preoccupied by the other things that distracted me from the calling. I believe in Him, i surrender to Him. I summit everything to Him. God won't failed us, He doesn't want to see us suffering. He has His plan. for He created us, he will take care of us. He is our Father. He love his children. Sister, remember..u will never alone.
oi, u wrote all this stuff ar? geng leh
A big big thank you for all the one who have been by my side,be my strength,be my shield all this while.
I really really appreciate it and thank God for giving u guys to me.
Love u guys alot ^^
Stunning...Just a stunning piece of musing and reflection...
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